90 Days Pornography Clean: Crossing the Finish Line

90 Days Pornography Clean: Crossing the Finish Line

So, this is the post where I reveal who I am. Although maybe many of you could figure it out. I wanted to write this blog for two main reasons. One was to support myself in my porn recovery. I found that if the consequences of watching pornography were greater than the immediate reward, then I would be much more powerful in my resolve. 110 Days With No Pornography! My name is Justin Okamoto. I’m 26 years old and I’m currently living in Japan. I’ve been blessed for almost four and a half years now and we are so happy together….

90 Day Clean – Day 87 Staying Present

90 Day Clean – Day 87 Staying Present

The countdown has begun! Only three more days until I’ve reached my goal. I just returned from a four-day trip to America where I met with some of my closest friends. We had the most amazing experience just sharing and catching up. In two days, I’ll be headed to Korea for a workshop. Being Busy Doesn’t Stop Random Thoughts Being so engaged with people and life has for the most part resulted in porn not being much of a struggle recently. However, feeling exhausted and tired on my one day back here, I started having this thought creep into my…

90 Days Clean: Day 80 Treat Yourself

90 Days Clean: Day 80 Treat Yourself

Hello everyone! Ten more days until I hit the ninety day mark. It’s hard to believe that I’ve made it this far. It’s a little sad to admit that, but for a long time I felt this was impossible. I’m headed to America this week and then right after I’ll be going to Korea for the Global Top Gun workshop! So, in theory I won’t even have space in my calendar for porn to show up. That doesn’t mean I can get lazy though. This past week hasn’t been easy. The Mind Seeks Rewards I’ve been having these memories and…

90 Days Clean: Day 74 For the Married People

90 Days Clean: Day 74 For the Married People

Hello everyone! So this past week has been a busy week. I did my first consulting gig on Sunday. We created a mission statement for an organization related to our church. That was very exciting to be a part of. For me I could experience first hand the amount of focus and energy it takes to bring 6 people together to a place of unity and agreement. In the end we were all on the same page and the energy was so different from when we started. Also it was a paid gig, so it was my first step towards…

90 Days Clean: Day 67 – Burning Your Boats

90 Days Clean: Day 67 – Burning Your Boats

Hello everyone! I want to make this post short and to the point. This past week has had a few struggles here and there. I’ve had my fair share of triggers, but I can say that it honestly isn’t that hard anymore to keep this up. Better Habits Build Strength From my experience of getting clean so far, I can say that it does get easier. What has happened is, the practices I was making effort to put in place earlier in this journey have now become ingrained in just how I live my life. For example, I don’t let…

90 Days Clean: Day 60 – The Tip of the Iceberg

90 Days Clean: Day 60 – The Tip of the Iceberg

Hello everyone! So, I am now two-thirds of the way through this journey to ninety days of being clean. Of course ninety days is not the real goal. The real goal is a lifestyle of sexual integrity, but I do think it’s always important to set measurable goals when trying to make or break a habit. As far as sexual integrity or a high noon lifestyle goes; not relapsing or not watching porn is just the tip of the iceberg. I don’t know if I’m using the metaphor right, but that’s the way I see it. Where Does a Relapse…

90 Days Clean: Day 53 – A Humbling Week

90 Days Clean: Day 53 – A Humbling Week

So, since my last year streak, I think this is the longest I’ve gone being sober without being in a 21 or 40-day workshop! It feels really good I must say, but this past week has not been easy; it’s been humbling. Push the Help Button For the first time in a very long time I used the “I’m triggered” button on rTribe. Which I would recommend using by the way. I think a big part of my recovery is completely dropping the myth that I can get through this alone. This battle with pornography has been a very humbling…

90 Days Clean: Passing the Big Four Zero!

90 Days Clean: Passing the Big Four Zero!

Yes! This is awesome. I have officially passed forty days of being porn free. Thank you, thank you. Day 45, and it really has been a long time since I could say I’ve been more than forty days without watching porn. It feels pretty good. That said this week has not been easy. A part of me really wishes that this is just going to be smooth sailing from here on out. Like this whole porn thing can be a thing of the past and something that doesn’t pop up on my radar. For you folks who’ve been sober longer…

90 Days Clean: Day 38 What I’ve Learned

90 Days Clean: Day 38 What I’ve Learned

Today is Day 38 being sober from pornography. On a difficulty scale of one to ten, the past week has been probably around a two. I’ve had moments here and there wanting to watch porn, but it wasn’t all that hard to just say no. It definitely helps knowing that I’d have to share my slip-up on this blog. So since I started in the middle of this quest, I want to catch you up on what it was like for the first few weeks. How I Got to Day 38 I have to admit that coming back from the…

90 Days Porn Clean: Join My Journey

90 Days Porn Clean: Join My Journey

There I was, a 13-year old kid waking up on my living room couch. It’s dark, around midnight. I can’t sleep so I turn on the TV and start flipping through channels – and there it is. A porn commercial on Spike TV. My heart is racing. I feel guilty but at the same time excited, intrigued, aroused. A voice in my head says “this is wrong, turn it off!” But I don’t listen. A minute passes, the commercial ends and I go to sleep. This was my first introduction to porn. From Curiosity to Porn Addiction Before that, I…