90 Days Clean: Day 80 Treat Yourself

90 Days Clean: Day 80 Treat Yourself

Hello everyone! Ten more days until I hit the ninety day mark. It’s hard to believe that I’ve made it this far. It’s a little sad to admit that, but for a long time I felt this was impossible. I’m headed to America this week and then right after I’ll be going to Korea for the Global Top Gun workshop! So, in theory I won’t even have space in my calendar for porn to show up. That doesn’t mean I can get lazy though. This past week hasn’t been easy. The Mind Seeks Rewards I’ve been having these memories and…

90 Days Clean: Day 74 For the Married People

90 Days Clean: Day 74 For the Married People

Hello everyone! So this past week has been a busy week. I did my first consulting gig on Sunday. We created a mission statement for an organization related to our church. That was very exciting to be a part of. For me I could experience first hand the amount of focus and energy it takes to bring 6 people together to a place of unity and agreement. In the end we were all on the same page and the energy was so different from when we started. Also it was a paid gig, so it was my first step towards…

90 Days Clean: Day 67 – Burning Your Boats

90 Days Clean: Day 67 – Burning Your Boats

Hello everyone! I want to make this post short and to the point. This past week has had a few struggles here and there. I’ve had my fair share of triggers, but I can say that it honestly isn’t that hard anymore to keep this up. Better Habits Build Strength From my experience of getting clean so far, I can say that it does get easier. What has happened is, the practices I was making effort to put in place earlier in this journey have now become ingrained in just how I live my life. For example, I don’t let…

90 Days Clean: Day 60 – The Tip of the Iceberg

90 Days Clean: Day 60 – The Tip of the Iceberg

Hello everyone! So, I am now two-thirds of the way through this journey to ninety days of being clean. Of course ninety days is not the real goal. The real goal is a lifestyle of sexual integrity, but I do think it’s always important to set measurable goals when trying to make or break a habit. As far as sexual integrity or a high noon lifestyle goes; not relapsing or not watching porn is just the tip of the iceberg. I don’t know if I’m using the metaphor right, but that’s the way I see it. Where Does a Relapse…

90 Days Clean: Day 53 – A Humbling Week

90 Days Clean: Day 53 – A Humbling Week

So, since my last year streak, I think this is the longest I’ve gone being sober without being in a 21 or 40-day workshop! It feels really good I must say, but this past week has not been easy; it’s been humbling. Push the Help Button For the first time in a very long time I used the “I’m triggered” button on rTribe. Which I would recommend using by the way. I think a big part of my recovery is completely dropping the myth that I can get through this alone. This battle with pornography has been a very humbling…

90 Days Clean: Passing the Big Four Zero!

90 Days Clean: Passing the Big Four Zero!

Yes! This is awesome. I have officially passed forty days of being porn free. Thank you, thank you. Day 45, and it really has been a long time since I could say I’ve been more than forty days without watching porn. It feels pretty good. That said this week has not been easy. A part of me really wishes that this is just going to be smooth sailing from here on out. Like this whole porn thing can be a thing of the past and something that doesn’t pop up on my radar. For you folks who’ve been sober longer…

90 Days Clean: Day 38 What I’ve Learned

90 Days Clean: Day 38 What I’ve Learned

Today is Day 38 being sober from pornography. On a difficulty scale of one to ten, the past week has been probably around a two. I’ve had moments here and there wanting to watch porn, but it wasn’t all that hard to just say no. It definitely helps knowing that I’d have to share my slip-up on this blog. So since I started in the middle of this quest, I want to catch you up on what it was like for the first few weeks. How I Got to Day 38 I have to admit that coming back from the…

90 Days Porn Clean: Join My Journey

90 Days Porn Clean: Join My Journey

There I was, a 13-year old kid waking up on my living room couch. It’s dark, around midnight. I can’t sleep so I turn on the TV and start flipping through channels – and there it is. A porn commercial on Spike TV. My heart is racing. I feel guilty but at the same time excited, intrigued, aroused. A voice in my head says “this is wrong, turn it off!” But I don’t listen. A minute passes, the commercial ends and I go to sleep. This was my first introduction to porn. From Curiosity to Porn Addiction Before that, I…